LexInE lOVeS JoEl

2005-01-11T17:29:00.000+08:00

i'm sooo back!!!! Ok la lene..i updating now!! NO NEED TO KILL ME!! hahas..anyway..i saw alene tat day..was with deon..she looksss greeaaatttt!!!!!!!!! Lolx...pretty pretty prettyyyy sista of mineee!!! i'm sooo lucky!! I'm gonna let ya see a picture of her!! lolx...i'll do e pictures later..lolx..too badd lene!! Ok..i'm madd...i've got sec 4 camp tomroz!! so excited..gonna stay over deon's hse first!! Yupp..haha..hope i'm same grp as her!! It'll be even better...ya..i dunno wat to say..hmmm....i finally did peter's testi after months...i still have many more to go..johnson..alene..deon..fab..audrey(ex wife)...amanda(ma wife)...dunno who else..priss too i tink...haha..i love you all!!!! MUACKZZ!!! ok..i'm gonna let ya see pictures now!!....

2005-01-11T17:24:00.000+08:00

*Best frens 4eva!! this was taken last year..somewhere in october..haha..nice rite?? We're wearing makeup..done by deon's mummy!!

Thats joel n steph(at e back) taken this year christmas..he's jus e cutest!! MuACkZz!!*

At e confirmation this year!! frens frm ctk came too!!

Charlotte Tan...Ma Primary sch best fren!! She's in australia now!! i miss her!!*

Audrey Choo...Ma Beloved EX-Wife..

Amanda,Ma WIFE & Audrey(EX-WIFE)..and loius is behind!!he's soooo funny!!

ALENE!!!!!! haha..told ya she's pretttyyy!! she's with chanel n dunno who..lolx..sorry!!

Thats me..taken a few hours ago..lolx..funny me!! lolx..

Alene the prettiest one!! duh...lolx..

Stefan with Taufik!! The other 2 boys i dunno..stefan is more handsome than them both!!

Pilar n Reina..ma best buds!! love them both alot!!I miss them...

Pictures from North District Camp 2004!! I love d e camp!! MISS EVERY1!!

MA GROUP RAWKS!!! GOOO ASHER!!!!!

Joel's Group..with cutiepie,shermann,jeremy n sheryl too!! JUDAH!!

LEVI!!! peter's here!! lolx..he's funny..(look at him!!) lolx

Priss,ma wife n ex wife is here!! lolx..this grp is BENJAMIN!!

2004-10-23T10:21:00.000+08:00

ok ...got ma internet back.i really have no mood to do anything..i failed everything xcept english and art..wat am i gonna do ?i have nth to say la...haiz..i'm fed up wif life.fed up . i feel like dying.

2004-09-25T18:30:00.000+08:00

i feel terrible.i got a feeling fab's party is gonna be bad for me.Making ma decision now...haiz...deon can't come cuz her mum said so..haiz..i dunno la...i'm feeling horrible..

meeting tmr..me.charlyn and steph.h will be going. haiz..

i dun feel like updating le..haiz..listening to song n smsing fab..haiz...

2004-09-20T20:14:00.000+08:00

gosh..its been a really long time since i updated.Hmmm..guess i've been too lazy. Well..here goes..i'm dealing wif sum problems now.i need help maself. I can't stand to see ma frens in pain.It breaks ma heart to see dem cry inside yet smile on e outside.haiz..hurts..newayss..raidah n deon went for OBS last week.Missed dem loads.Now..they're back..darker n full of sandbites!!Haha..pity dem.Exams are 12 days away. I'm worried.I hope i dun retain.I betta buck up.Haiz..mdm wee talked to me tat day and surprisingly i let out all ma problems to her.She said she felt i hated her n tat she had always held me in high regard n was worried for me cuz ma grades have been slipping..When she said tat...I dunno why i cried.Haiz..I guess i let ma emotions take over me.went out wif alene jie e otha day.It was definitely worth it.Love her loads.I'm happy she forgave me after everything tat happened.N if ya readin this...i jus wanna thank ya k.=) Made cookies on saturday with priss n ma sista at her priss hse.It was really fun.Haha...It turned out nice.Den..Went out wif servers yesterday..Went to loy kee as they wanted to eat dere first..They ended up shooting ice n each other while i enjoyed e songs playin on bernard's mp3 player...After tat went back church to wait for some of them as got training for new servers..Got wet cuz of uncle jeff.Haha..Blah blah blah...I really enjoyed maself..Love them loads.I'm glad they loved e cookies too.Biswas ate it all up.Haha. Newayss...I'm madly in love with e song by Counting Crows "Accidentally In Love" !!!!!!!!!! Ohhh...I just love it...been singing it in class today...haha...anyways..I n fab..we're not together le..even tho he knows how i feel abt him.I just wanna concentrate on ma studies now.Maybe after tat...I'll give him another chance after all.Rite fab?? Haha..=) Ok lor. Haven cramps now.Damn.menses sure sux.K la...tata.Love ya guys!! Thankx for readin k!!! I'll update soon !! =)

2004-08-24T18:19:00.000+08:00

early for sch today.Was hoping it'll be the start of a nice day.Well..saw alene..didn't say hi..i dunno why..but she doesn't like me. Well..I can't help it if she hates me.Haiz..I'll always love her as ma jie.Haiz..anyway..school was not bad today lor.The only sad thing is i lost 10 bucks..haiz..someone took it..Haiz..didn't go choir cuz i wasn't feeling rite.I hope i wun be punished.Haiz..they are getting more strict cuz of SYF next year.Haiz..dunno la..tinking of quiting..i'll see abt it....maybe i will.But i need e cca points.hmmm...after tat..went to eat at kfc alone.Now i'm home..at the com.Blog-hopping now..I'm online..but appears offline. Dun feel like talkin to anyone.haiz.steph jus came online..i wrote her a letter.hope she read it. Well...i'm tired le...bye..take care..

2004-08-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

today is the unluckiest day!! was late today..cuz of tat..got cwo on friday,parents,have to come down.Missed Social Studies test by a few mins...so i had to rush to finsh it..surely fail lor..haiz..den..recess food sucked today..the potato i bought was super duper hard..i swear ma teeth can break.Oh gosh.Den after school,Had to stay back for maths..arghhh..raidah n pritz had to wait for me cuz of tat..haiz..sorry guys..den..when i reached sembawang mrt ..I couldn't find ma ez-link card!! I quickly msged deon to help me find..but den she was in maths lesson..i had no money wif me cuz it was with ma ez-link card.ARGGHH!!! So i borrowed frm a fren i saw..haha..paiseh..saw ma cutiepie marius in the mrt..so cute la he..haha..din noe he frm st gabs pri..newayys...took to marsiling..den take bus with few coins left..den walk home..hmmm...watched chinese show..den now on the com..hmmm...6.30pm till now...gonna go sleep soon...helping joey with e preparations for e surprise birthday!! So excited..talkin to her ,kor n fab dear..well..take care peeps..hope ma day will be better tomroz.!! BYe..=)

2004-08-21T13:01:00.000+08:00

went for choir today..wasn't late..thank god...haha..choir was fast today..finished at 10 plus....went down canteen to eat den came home..didn't wanna wait for angeline cuz she awas gonna go johnson hse to study i tink..haha..so here i am now..straight after school..on e com..bored like hell..avlyn jus went novena to meet mum...n sean ?? dunno where he go lor..came back at 12 plus last night..hmmm....melanie's comin over at 3.30pm..yeah!! so happy..she's such a sweetypie..haha...den we're gonna get ready n go for cathechism class...i tink i'll come home after class..den got meeting at 7.00pm ...i tink we've all gonna have a talk..well...i hope everything goes alrite..i dun wanna have fights...nono..i dun..k la..i very tired le..wanna take a shower..bye!! Take care..love ya loads.!! Kor..i miss u loads!! You nv msg me le!!!!! haha...Better be soon!! =)

2004-08-20T12:40:00.000+08:00

met deon in the morning.i was late..reached admiralty at 7.20 ...wat the hell...school start already..so we decided to take cab.after 10 mins..we FINALLY got a cab...but den we got off at sun plaza n decided to walk since we were already late..lolx..reached sch but i wasn't caught!!!Managed to escape...lolx..deon had to get the white slip cuz her maths teacher was first period..so poor thing...had to stay back during recess...haha..anyway..pe was cool..had to dance some stupid dance..salleh was the only one tat kept dancing...lolx...funny man...dn we had free peroids for maths...yeah..was so happy..lolx..saw alene..lolx..shout her name so loud..was she blushing?? Lolx..yeah ..anyway..i very tired le..byez!!!!!! =) Have a nice day everyone!!

2004-08-18T21:34:00.000+08:00

i didn't go to school today...woke up wif cramps...damn..den i didn't meet fab..oh man..haiz...sorry dear...well..i dunno wat say now..it was such a boring day...steph wrote me a letter..it explains everything we didn't like abt each other...I hope we'll be friends again..i dun wan enemies..hmmm...copying some cds now..some old songs..miss fab now..he's not online...kor also..haiz..well...havin cramps now..pain lik shit..miss eveeryone!! =) guess i'll go now..i wanna sleep early..haiz...so i can go sch tomorz..bye..

2004-08-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

dad's home today...jus did some studying...awfully bored now..gonna watch singapore idol but i'm tired..so see first la..anyway...talkin to fab dearest now..hmmm...i dunno wat to say..lolx..so i'll go now..byez..love u peeps!! =)

2004-08-15T21:08:00.000+08:00

Went for Parish Assembly today..kept seeing joel..i know he kept looking at me..i caught a few stares..he turned away..haiz..Newayys..Congratulations to him(joel)...he's become one of e most important person in our church.Well...congratulations...All the best in watver u do k! I dunno wat to say le..i very tired...prepaid still low..nv top up..so dun sms me le..Sorry...

2004-08-12T18:56:00.000+08:00

haiz..now its better...jus now i can't see a damn thing on ma screen but can hear songs..stupid com...haiz...met fab jus now..he passed me smt..its so cute..haha..thanks fab...anyway..talked to peter but he's crazy..give me attitude prob...arggghhh...wats e matter wif all of dem...I'm so sick n tired of havin frens like tat....yes..i dun xpect them to be nxt to me FOREVER..but..whenever i talk to dem...unless SHOW me u are interested la..if u are busy..can atleast tell me...dun take an hour to reply me...it drives me nuts..wat if i did tat to u. Agghhh!!!!!! I dunno wats e matter wif me la..smts really wrong..alene saw me i tink..n yeah...didn't say anything lor..like as if avoided ma looks..so i didn't say hi too but i jus it was kinda wrong la..haiz..but e feelin she dun care remains in me..i dun understand why.I mean she has otha frens n yeah..i wan object that..i mean..who am i to do so ?? Haiz....I can't b bothered le..jus like how diann hack care me too...well...i'm gonna go back to ma attitude problem lil bitch if everyone drives me mad..i'm halfway there!!!!!Haiz...lord..take me away...i dun wanna be disappointed gain..dun wanna..i love dem all so much.

2004-08-12T18:21:00.000+08:00

smt's wrong wif e fucking com.FUCK LA.

2004-08-11T20:59:00.000+08:00

will someone pls help me..give me a hug..i can't stop e tears.

i couldn't sleep well last night...i can't stop thinking u cheated our friendship...haiz...went to school...sat down with the rest...didn't even sae anything..deon came up to me..dunno how she knew ...but she knew i was gonna cry....i could stop e tears with much force..wat m i going to do...haiz..i'm with fab now...haiz...i got nth to say...i'm gonna lie down n cry ma heart out..till i forgive you..till den...I'm sorry...but put urself in ma shoes...n den look back....look back..and see..how much you're hurting me...haiz...if u're readin this...i hope u understand..haiz...here i am sitting down..reflecting..haiz...i wanna die..i really wanna..but i dun wanna disappoint the rest who put THEIR trust in me....i noe how it feels...dun try on me already...i'm no toy...i wanna be loved..

2004-08-10T19:57:00.000+08:00

todae was gonna be such a great day. woke up at 6+ and got ready to go to East Coast Park with potter's clay.I wasn't really looking forward to a good day cuz i noe sum ppl who were going hate me.but i was wrong...We had loads of fun.Didn't want to get into the water at first..father n steph carried me and THREW me in!!!!Oh gosh...Haha...it was fun though i didn't want it...got buried in the sand today ...haha...i'll show ya e pictures when ma mum gets it developed.haha...went cycling too...hmmm...it was fun..loved it when e wind was gently blowing in ma face...played soccer n captain's ball when we reached church...haha...i had sand on ma body n felt most uncomfy havin to run here n there...yeah...anyway...when i reached home...

That was jus one part of e day..the rest sux..i lost a fren.. whom i trusted so deeply..with all ma deepest secrets..haiz...she told someone some stuff...she claims she didn't noe n felt it was nth wrong..i mean..come on la...if it was nth wrong..i would have told him ma self..Wats e matter wif u...i'm off with joel...haiz...i've got nth to say..wat kind of fren are u ?? Whats the meaning of frens..haiz...do u even noe?? Haiz...I give everyone a listening ear...whenever u have any probs...ma shoulder will be yours to cry on..you'll get e huggs u wan...i promise you all dat..i love all of you..haiz...jus dun disappoint me...dun hurt me..jus be there when i need u...dun hide from me..haiz....dun let our friendship go down the drain..i nv wanna lose ma frens..nv...How can u expect me to forget e things we did together...all e memories..haiz...as long as time keeps on passing by....i'll be here..i could nv live with out u guys....Now..look wat has happened..how am i gonna trust u gain...u tink u're still right...ma tears can't seem to stop...you're killing me slowly...how can u hurt me...Was it something I did?Was it something i said? I love all of ma friens..i really do..ma heart is yours..yes..even though i may have e certain guy...i'll nv even go to the distance of forgetting u...wat m i gonna do now..i need some hugs...will someone pls..sobx..

haiz...happy belated birthday to you den..priss.I'm sorry.

2004-08-07T12:43:00.000+08:00

school was reali fun yesterday...did some community singing..we choir lead them..yea...we had to do some dance..it was so nice...glad i didn't do anything wrong...haha.after tat went to the hall for performance..haiz..nv talked to raidah..dunno why la..but nvm...sec5s were so cute to do the waves...the npcc were great..and i n deon are alrite already..yeah...better to have frens den enemies rite??...well after tat....when to set up the place for youth mass at 5+...hmmm...lotsa work..it was tiring but i was excited for it..haha...anita forgot to come..lolx..how forgetful of her..but nvm la....den then...youth mass!!!!!!!!youth mass rawked!!!! Yeah..i loved it..roxanne and jude came n i ended up sittin wif dem..haha..she's really cute!! Later everything and everyone was gone..potter's clay had to clear up the place..hmm...tats the part i hate most..lolx..Cleaning up!!! After tat...i went to wait for ma bro to play finish soccer..charlyn was os nice to wait for me...somemore she have audition today...all the best to her!!!!!!! Ma retarded buddy..haha..she's so cute..aniwae..reached home ard 12+...still had to hang up clothes..aiyo..den went to sleep..woke up ard 11+ todae..dad scold lor..he said can't go anywhere xcept for cat class todae..idiot la he..!!!!!!!! ARGGHHH!!!!!!!!! Well..nvm..atelast i can go out...hmmm...i tink i gotta go soon..talkin to fab on msn now..mum's home..so i gotta go..!! Byez...love ya all!!!!!!!!=) N GOD BLESS YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

2004-08-01T19:13:00.000+08:00

went for 9.15 mass todayz...mom didn't noe...attended wif audrey(ma wife), amanda n karen came late.bass was also late so he didn't attend it...newayss...he's realli sweet..he got me a espirt bag..and a anklet...so sweet!!!! well...after tat went to mac wif priss.zach.joel.micheal.jude.avlyn.christe.peter. joel n micheal went home to get smt...the rest of us went to playground..play swing..lolx..peter la..he wanted to go..n gosh..i was wearin a skirt..lolx..den went to get ice batu ...hmmm..it was not tat nice though....haha..after eveything..i went home..rest for awhile...den went to St Anne's Church for St Anne's feast day. oh gosh...the serers there are extremly cute!!!!!!! gosh..can jus melt..haha..anyway...ma bro wants to use e com...gtg le...byez...""

2004-07-26T21:44:00.000+08:00

I'm sick!!!:( oh man...haiz..niwess..didn't update cuz i was too sick n tired..yeah..school today was boring lor...no free period at study area also ..haiz..alene got 6 free peroids..so good!!!aniwaes..went out wif alene after sch todae..went to long john silvers n ate..hmmph!! We saw lina sabrina!!!!Oh gosh!! wat luck!!! she gave us a smile..alene was so over it..she was like.."oh man..tat ger jus gave me such a mockin smile."she started complaining ..haha.. i was jus smilin..lolx..she was so cute..den she use ma phone call ah shad..wa kao..$17+ till $14+ ..oh man..aiyah...nv mind..its ok!!!!hmmm..after tat..went to take neoprint..damn lor..the stupid cashier cheat $2 of me!!!! damn bitch!!!! Argghhhh!!!!!! Went home after tat..listenin to atomic kitten now..hmmm..nice..lolx..its priss cd..hehe..betta return her soon..lolx..later she kill me..hmmm...today is the day i n joel could have been for 20 months!!!!!!! arggghhh..nvm la..haiz...sista of mine wanna use e com..will update tomroz den..love!! Bye..Oh ya joel..Happy 2oth Month..i still love u lot *sighs* come back to me.......

2004-07-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

hello deareys!!!!!!!=) Here i am..back againss...lolx...Ok..i'm mad..weellll...today was RACIAL HARMONY DAY!!!! Hmmm...first of all...i woke up early!!!Den ma stupid bro ask us to take a taxi..i didn't mind taking the bus but den..being a sweetypie ....i agreed to take it wif him as it was raining...yeah..so anywaysss...we went down at 6.30am...got a cab at 7.07am!!!!!!!!Oh man...i was terribly angry..was so scared i was gonna be late....but no..i wasn't....lolx...THANK GOD!!

Ok..so i reached school..hmmm...was surprised when i saw some of ma friends wearing..Raidah looked so cute in her chinese costume...lolx.."china girl"....Angeline wore too...lolx..some malay dress...dunno wats it called..lolx..i wore ma cousin's punjabi suit..hmmm....ma frens say i looked nice..i tink they realli looked nice too...=) yeah..so we took some pictures ...I'm gonna get them developed asap!!!!!Lolx...Well..there was this stuupidd concert..we had to dance...aiyo..the dance was nice..but i couldn't be bothered to dance..lolx..looked at ma frens and laughed..so mean rite..lolx..well...lessons continued...terribly boring....haiz...well...i ran away from ma maths teacher today...stupid la he..ask me to stay back..but too baddd...lolx..i'm so bad la...**hmmm...ma stupid sista just came back..saying"I tell mummy u playinng computer." So childish...just becuz i nv open the door for her..damn it..she got her own key rite..fucker la she...spoil ma mood only..argghhh!!!!!!!** anywaysss...*alene jie,u ok not??Haiz..u looked so sad at the canteen..ah shad rite??Haiz...relax k...smile!! You looked gorgeous jus now in sch !!!Thanks 4 taking e pic even though u were so sad,, MuaCkzZ!!

after sch..went to take neoprint with pritz n shamala.hmmm...i look so wierd..lolx..hmmmm...on the way back..i walked in church...saw dominick n joel there...haiz..looking at him..and he just turned away..pretending he doesn't noe me...wat's e matter wif him man...arggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!but..i really miss him...i really do...oh man...haiz...ok la..i betta end here...i'm gonna cry!!!!!!haiz...take care ppl..tag ma board..love ya!! byez...

2004-07-20T17:52:00.000+08:00

Church of St Anthony of Padua presents our VERY FIRST PLAY.
I Behold my god.This Musical is abt The Life of Saint Anthony on the 27th & 28th August 2004 Only. The Musical starts at 7.30pm at the Kallang Threatre. Tckets at $20,18 & $15 are on sale at our church after every mass.*Bus services is provided at an additional $2 per person .The bus leaves from our church.

If anything please call Church of St Anthony at
Tel: 63683804Fax: 63678392.

2004-07-20T17:29:00.000+08:00

CALLING ALL YOUTHS!!!!!!! Church of St Anthony Of Padua will be having a Youth mass on the 6th of August(Friday).It starts at 8 pm TO 10pm.There would be food and drinks after the mass too.We hope you will be able to make it. I'm sure you'll meet many ppl there too..You are welcome to bring along a 1 or 2 of your friends.**Come support us with your presence ok!!~~** Love,Lexine!!

**The address of our church is : 25 Woodlands Ave 1 Singapore 739064 .If u wanna noe anything?? Call me on ma phone k?? or e-mail me..!!!!!!!

haiz..i didn't go school todae..had cramps..haiz...stupid man..missed assembly todae...i tink they gonnna talk abt e new school uniforms..haiz..aniway..tomoroz its racial harmony day..I'll be wearing a punjabi suit tomroz.. lolx.. dun mind if i spell wrongly ok!!Anyway..i bet tomroz gonna be a great day wif all ma friends..haha..hope they all wear thier traditional costumes too!! I'll be bringing a camera tomroz..hmm..take a few pictures and will show u kies??Lolx...i betta stop ma crapp here..hmmm...jude!! Update ur blog!! Lolx..Take care ppl!!!!!!!!Love ya loads!!!! MuAcKZz =) !!!

2004-07-18T19:36:00.000+08:00

didn't go to church today...woke up n came straight to the com...talked to pris=) n sheryl=)..love them loads!! haha..yeah..i crazy..anewayss...i'm alone at home..haven done homework..jus no mood..joel,fab,zach,peter went to some parish retreat..oOoOo...missing them loads..haiz..still miss joel..haiz..aniwayss....i've been singing the song"the first cut is the deepest" by sheryl crowe..hmmm...i jus love it..love it!!hahass..well..i dunno wat to say le..tomroz..i tink i wanna catch e movie mean girls..dun tell me anithing!!!I'm dying to see it..jus haven had e time..hmm...watched king arthur alreadi n it sux!! Dun like it..so much fighting scenes..was sleepin most of e time..lolx...yeah..hmmm...dunno wats e matter with jude n rox ....will some1 pls tell me..gosh..i'm so worried for ma two frens..hmmm...took a picture tat day..oOoO..I tink i look pretty nice....dun wanna be accused of self praise but i'm proud the lord made me look pretty..but hmmmm all e girls i noe are pretty too...lolx =)!!!!!Arghhh..later ma stupid mom nv buy for me lunch...die la..betta rush her..ok....dunno wat to write..those of u haven update ur blogs..pls update!! I Wanna read...haha...esp jude..sheryl..rox..!!!!lolx..take care darlings!!Love ya loads!! hahass...i'll betta stop talking crapps now..byez..Take care..come back for more updates..i may jus change ma skin soon.bye

2004-07-14T18:10:00.000+08:00

k priss..i'm updating!!=) Hmmm...i didn't go to school todays..i was sick..woke up with a terrible headache n running nose..so i went to e doctors..she was so nice..!!hmmm...now i'm helpin charlyn with our potter's clay webby!!=)Well...we're havin a youth mass for all e youths!!I noe its gonna be good..so if u're a catholic..and a youth!!Come..lolx..wtf..dunno wat i'm doin..hahas..ok la.i gotta help her le..byez.!!Take Care ppl!!Tag ma board!!Byez..

2004-07-07T20:07:00.000+08:00

ok..i finally updating after some time...i kinda grew used to not usin e com..haha..yeah..school has started ..arghhh..its dead boring..i dunno wat to say..many things are happenening in ma life!!Hmmm..boys,friends n family..so much to say.and ma fingers will hurt..so nvm la..haha..another time i guess..hmmm..jude has finally updated his blog..haha..so go read his lame stuff!!Lolx..sorry jude ..haha..simle k =)!!Well...i'm online chatting wit ma frens..gotta go !!hmmm..i guess i'll still keep ma blog skin..cuz i still like it..!!K..byez..Take care ppl!! Tag ma board okies!!Love ya!!MuAckzZz!!!

2004-06-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

hello!!! Its sure been a long time since i last updated..hmmm..well..todayz..we started school again..awww..i miss e holidays!!!Wahaha!!Ok la..enuff of ma crapp..erm..it was kinda borin lor....lessons as usual..got to see everyone..alene too..hmmm...surprising..she gave me a hug..lolx..thanx lene!!!Well..i got some stupid bad news..aiyoh...ma phone cut again!!So i got a prepaid..yeah..haiz..well..i guezz u'll have to find out frm me if ya wanna noe e number k..hehe..ok...jus went for dinner wif peter n pris..and jus talked to sheryl on e phone..becoming much much closer to her..hmmm..after e camp....well...got closer to alot of sec 3 peeps..lolx..love u guys lots!!MuAcKxX..haha..k la..i wanna go sleep..hope i get to come online tmroz.!! See ya!! Thks for readin ma blog!! Come back gain!!1Byez..

2004-06-12T13:37:00.000+08:00

ok ..here goes..ayo..i nv update 4 so long le..its cuz..I'M GROUNDED!!! dunno why la..ma parents la...haiz...i dunno watto say now..hmmm...its just tat later got p n w parctice..so...i bette be going...ma mum is at home...so..haiz..i can't type liao..she dun let me use e com...byez...sorry ..i'll try to update laterz...k..take care ppl..love ya lots..thks for readin ma blog!!

2004-06-03T09:37:00.000+08:00

hmmm...today actually wanted to wake up for morning mass de..with pris..den go swimming..but she got school..so we only wanted to go for mass...but i too lazy..haha..sorry priss :)...newayss...ma prents went out and ma sis to school..ma bro stayed over at aunt's hse...so...i using e com now..i was watching a video of e altar boys singing..lolx..so funny man..haha...i dunno wat else to write..i tink maybe gonna visit peter's sista..she gave birth le!! OoOo...SO HAPPZ..ITS A GERL!!i guess i'll come back lata to tell ya more..haha..byez..

2004-06-03T08:51:00.000+08:00

*Tuesday*
Hmmmm....todaz[tues]..ma siblings me n ma mom were gonna go to aunt's hse early morn..but i woke up lil late at 11+ n mom had to get smt 4 ma dad..so she went out with ma sis..while i n ma bro got ready to leave..ma dad was gonna fetch us..or we would be even later..so we got ready n went down to wait 4 him..bloddy hell..made us wait for 1/2 hour..he keep saying on e way when we call him..but was so long..arghh..den after tat...went for lunch with ma mom n sis too..den went to ma aunt's hse.haiz..watched movie after movie...it was super boring lor..haiz...even while writing abt it makes me wanna sleep!!

*Wednesday*
well...today was ok la..got potter's clay practice..so i went to meet charlyn genevieve tan and stephy b4 it started at macdonalds...after eating..i followed stephy to go get some stuff b4 going to church...we told charlyn n gen to take our stuff n got to church first..hmmm...i called charlyn a few mins lata to ask her if she took ma wallet on e table at mac's..she keep saying no no..so i n stephy rushed back to find it..gosh..the table was cleared lor..no wallet was there..i called charlyn again..damn it..she told me it was in ma bag..she bluff me..wtf!!made me run back..arghhh...so i and stephy walked to church..
reachin church..i saw them all some of e members there..i asked charlyn y dey were there..and not in a room...she said got no room!!Father and aunt evvonne(wrong spelling) were not in..arghhh...we ended up doing it in church..at e choir area..lucky no one saw us..and we didn't practice so loud..if father noe..WE DIE!!so..we ended our practice at 5.30pm and we went home..i was supposed to follow ma bro go to aunt's hse again!! but i didn't want to...ma mum was so mad at me..she didn't wanna talk to me...oh wateva..den lata..i met up wif steph and jasy..we went to kfc for dinner..we were makin a fool of ourselves dere..haha..everyone was looking at us..but we didn't care..haha!!it was so cool to be back together again..the 3 of us!!!anewaysss...dey came ma hse after tat..i helped steph to her blog and stuff while jasy watched tv....they went home after tat.. n jus in time..ma parents came home..wa lao..heng man..lucky dey nv saw them..haha..haiz..lata on at night..i heard ma parents shouting at each otha..it was so scary...i and ma sis didn't dare to on e tv..scared ma dad scold..arghh!!i missed e chinese show!!hmmm...after tat..ok le..we went to sleep...i didn't get much sleep though..i dunno why..haiz...

2004-05-31T15:28:00.000+08:00

haiz...i've been feeling really down..i changed ma skin..u guys like it ?? I just love britney..so if u dun like it..fuck off ..haiz..aniwae..after going for pnw and stuff ...i dunno why i feel like no one..i have no true best friends..sob...all i long is for someone who cares..loves me for who i am...haiz..when will tat person come...when...haiz...i really need u now...joel..i love you...

2004-05-26T15:22:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm...just did a stupid survey for fun..i jus got back frm school..damn tired...haiz..i wanna rest..lata still got praise and worship still..well...today i woke up at 6.10..rushed immediately for school..hmmm...was late den mrs singh let us off..cuz got traffic jam...so i no need to stay back for recess...hmmm..atleast i got to eat ma mee goreng ,potato and wedges...hmmmm...i'm kinda hungry now...haven had ma lunch..well...tommorz angeline not coming to school..sian la..i tink kwee cheng too...no chinese today..teacher ended up telling us ghost stories..Scary man..haha..well..i dunno why i got nothing much to say..damn tired..came straight home..and here i am..i guess i'l be going for p n w again...saw diann today..but as usual..she nv talks to me..haiz..wateva..i bet she doesn't care.for god's sake!! She's only in sec 1!!Argh*** Aniwaes...i gotta go rest..tata ppl~~

Started at:1530

2)Full name:+ Lexine Theodora-Ann Iseral +

3)Nickname:Taxi,Laksa,Lex,(jeremy calls me "act tall 'n' pontianak")

4)School:Riverside Secondary School

5)E-mail:lavenders_glory_girl@hotmail.com

6)Star sign:Libra

7)Chinese Zodiac sign: Snake

8)Siblings:yeah..2 freaks!!

9)Good friends: a loT lar...

10)Ever go out late @ nite: yeah...

11)Ever missed school because it was raining?: nO... goT bettA reaSons tO pontanG... haha...

12)How often do you go out: often enuff

13)Kept a secret from everyone?: yeah like dUh...

14)Had an imaginary friend? :Like no...

15)Religion: + Roman Catholic +

16)Wish 4 sister or brother: hmmmm...yeah..i guess...a baby bro or sista can la..

17)Had a crush on a teacher?: Nope..

19)Ever at anytime owned a barney cd?: Yeah..back den in 1992.

20)Ever prank called someone: gOt...quite lots of frens..

21)Been on stage: dUh counTless...

22)Favourite things: alot of stuff...

23)Colors: PINK!!!!

25)Online: Huh ??

26)Countries: fRAnCe...australia..

27)Like anyone: yeah...ma ex joel...

28)Who have you known the longest of your friends: Stephy.Mike & Maria....

29)Who's the loudest: Ma cutiepie(desmond ng)

30)Who's the shyest: keith and maybe ma cutiepie 2(marrius)

31)Who do you go to for advice: 4 nOw, my "siS" Priscilla....

32)Who do you get along with best: thiNk pris and melanie...

----------IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS HAVE YOU------------

33)Cried: yeaH...

34)Been mean: thiNK sO...

35)Been sarcastic: weLL couplE of Times...

38)Talked to someone you never talk to before: yeah..met jude's gf roxanne...

39)Missed someone: everY minUte...

40)Hugged someone: a feW ppl from ChurCh...

41)Fought with your parent(s): yeaH... i damN nAUGthy lor..

42)Wished upon a star: coupLE of Times...

43)Laughed until you've cried: ofTEn...

44)Played Truth or Dare: noT dis few weeKS...

45)Watched a sunrise/sunset: nOpE... waItinG foR dat Someone to see togethER...

46)Went to the beach at night: nope...

47)Read a book for fun: yeaH....

48)Ate a meal: dUH...

49)Are you lonely?: yea...alone at home..

50)Are you happy?: noT reallY... whEn da PErson u lUVs leave u..would u be happy ?

51)Are you talking to someone online?: raidah...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN-------

52)God/Devil: yeAh, beEn taughT to belIEve in dem...

53)Love:yesh... latEly...

54)The closest fren: yeAh...

55)Curse: someTimes...

56)Heaven/hell: again... i've been taUGht to BElieve in IT...

57)superstitions: yeah someTimes...

59)Who named you?:paREnts...

60)Backstreets or N'sync: not dem la...

61)When was the last time you went out?: last night...

62)When was the last time you were online: last night...

63)What is right next to you?: mY guardIan AngEL....

64)What is your computer desk made of?: waT da hEll isit supposeD to meaN???

65)What was the last thing that you ate: sweet...

66)Where would you want to go on ur honeymoon?: fraNCe...

67)Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?: JOEL CHAN GUOYANG!

68)How's the weather right now?: Raining...thunder...lighting..

69)What did you do last night?: went for pnw and slpt

70)Thing that you find attractive about the opposite sex: dunno..

71)How do YOU eat an Oreo?: neh...i hate oreos!!

72)All time favorite tv show: Daddy's girls..(fave dj in it)

73)Dream car?: Space wagon

74)What do you want to be when you grow up: well... dunno

75)Favorite music?: foR...noW... "I'm jus a kid" by simple plan!!!

76)Favorite days of the week?: frIday...

77)Favourite food: Chicken Rice...

78)If you could change your name,what would it be?: dont need lar... confirmation name mayBE lar... Ashley sounds nice...

79)Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: No... my sista does..haha..

80)The most stupid thing you have ever done?: went up th ewrong escalator..it was going down and i wanted to go up...

81)First Son's name?: Hmmm...Nicholas maybe...

82)Do u keep pets: ma fish recently died...

83)You like scary or funny movies better?: FUNNY ..

84)On the phone or in person?:In person...

85)Lust or Love?: Love

86)What's ur hp no: dont wanT to anyhoW givE leh... thosE who noE me ShoulD noE...

87)sports dat u play: hmmmm...dunno la...

88)dislike sports: Yeah..i guess so...

91)What is your all-time favorite song?:erm...puppy love by don osmond..(old song)

2004-05-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

next day le...woke up and it was raining cats and dogs..hmmm..dad woke up and send mi n ma bro to school..was nearly late...but luckily not..hmmmm...i kinda forgot wat hapenned yesterday..lolx..how forgetful...sheesh~~aniwae..came back..helped ma mom cook some vegetables and had dinner at 7+..rushed down for praise and worship in church..hmmm...i dunno wats jasy's problem..dun wanna come...i can tell its cuz of stephy..haiz...wat the hell is wrong with u jasy!!haiyo..aniwae..after p n w..came home..SLEEP!!! was so damn tired..haiyo...den woke up today at 5+...went school on ma way todae ,dad nv send..wat a lazy ass...hmmm...i'm being mean!!But..who cares..hmmm...once i got on e 962 ..slept man..was so tired..thank god i got a seat..hmmm...aniwae..school was DAMN boring ...i was freaking tired..argghhhh...today's assembly was kinda fast but dead boring..mrs singh(vice-principle) talked abt behaving ourselves during holidays ..blah blah blah...such crap..like we pri sch kids lik dat..haiyo..i forgot abt choir todayz..came back..with a terrible headache yet i didn't rest...i came straight to e com...play till 7+...rushed to get ready for pnw again...hmmm...joel was there todayz...he looks so cute!! Saw him looking at me few times le..hmmmm..i love u joel!! Muackz..miss ya lots baby...k la..now i bette go sleep..lata cannot wake up againz...den mom will scold me!! Well...tata for now..Muackz!! Byez...

2004-05-25T17:28:00.000+08:00

hmmm...lets start off with sunday..hmmm...i slept late e night b4..at 2.35am..was watchin a show with ma mom...its a sad indian show..we both cried..its really touching..anyway..cuz of tat..i kinda woke up late for mass and had to rush..met amanda den went for mass...aiyo...i even forgot to comb ma hair..so messy...haiz..den came home..cuz nothing to do..called pris to meet for lunch..was going down when zach and peter called me..go eat..so we went..but half way eating..dad called me come back..damn fuck rite..cuz he lost his cd!! Wat e hell!! I was so angry..i shouted at him when he found it in his bag!! ARGHHH!! den went down and found pris alone..lolx..i'm sorry gerl!!had to make u wait..the otha two went out!! So mean rite..not gentleman..cannot wait till i get back..leave her alone!Carry on eating COLD FOOD..and den walked to her hse..she did ma toe nails..so shiny now..love dem!!hehe..den after tat..went to watch shrek 2..with peter pris n ma sis!! Its so nice..i love e donkey..so funny...haha..After tat..went for praise and worship..den came home..iron ma uniforms..sleep...missing joel..

2004-05-25T17:00:00.000+08:00

I woke up it was 7
Waited till 11
just to figure out that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
and here it goes

[Chorus:]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me {tonight}

And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me

What the {hell} is wrong with me?
don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
and every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid [repeat x5]

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
nobody wants to be alone in the world.

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me tonight

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight...

2004-05-19T20:16:00.000+08:00

woke up a lil late todae..iron ma uniforms..went to sch..gave alene some books she left behind at ma hse e day b4...school was damn boring..was sleeping for 2 periods n we had tis SEX talk by some guy called James.he told us abt diseases..and showed us some pictures ..oh gosh..it was disgusting..Yuck..aniwaes..i got back ma MATHS N CHEMISTRY RESULTS haiz...damn it la..FAILED!!sobz..i dunno how to tell ma parents leh..scared..ma dad beat me..arghhh!!! aniwaez...i bought e SEVENTEEN magazine..and kinda gave the shop owner a fright.I gave out a scream saying :"oh ma gosh!! Tats denise on e cover page!" I saw e owner take look..haha...n denise...looked so funny..her hair like exploded..almost couldn't recognise her..wearing the pokerdot bikini top and pink mini shorts....well...i dunno wat 2 write le..saw diann couple of times..she said hi..kinda surprising..i jus gave her a smile..hmmm...mean rite?? Well..i jus feel she's really changed..gettin involved wif e "ah lians" le..haiz..i guezz i can't do much so i guezz i'll jus shut e fuck up.k la..i very hungry..gonna go have a bite at mac..Byez.

2004-05-18T18:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm...went 2 sch 2daez...haiz...so sian..got performance..i was suopposed to perform too..aiyoh...i just forgot..haha...so i became one of the audiences..hahaz..anyway..sch was damn sian cuz all we did was sleep and some of us played "catch"...dunnno how to play..haha..so jus watch onli..
after sch..supposed to go take neoprint with crystal,pritz n banna gerl(SHAMALA)..haha..but den nv lor..so ended up goin to mos burger wif shamala to have lunch n den headed home...went to NTUC b4 gettin home to get a snack n saw JASY there..she works dere ma..lolx..talked to sum of e auntys there...her frens...haha.alene came ma hse after tat..cooked 4 her sum maggi mee..bought jolly shandy..and drank..haha..dunno why can buy..haha..den she use e com awhile..den go home le..on e way dowm..talked abt some secrets..well...tis stupid bro of mine wants to use e com..so he's rushin me..guezz i'll continue tomroz..haha..Take Care..Nitez.!! MuaCkzZz!!

2004-05-17T13:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm..i guess i wanna change ma skin i tink..well...its sure been some time since i last used e computer..who the hell is anon ?? Dun even noe u...you tink its very easy to die..sure..watever u say..i want to..but i have to also tink abt ppl who love me..do i wanna hurt them ?? friends & family dumbo..anyway..supoosed to go out wif jude and rajesh and fab to e movies..damn..last min stuff..i got sick n couldnt make it..haiz...sorry hor guys..anyway...alene..i guess i'm sorry 4 Bugging ya..i guess i'll stop la..haiz..nv realli thought of buggin lor..u really upset me so so much..but nvm..hmmm...abt cat class..i kinda tink sherly ok la..OK ONLY...vanessa is havin some probs i tink..so quiet..yeah..went swimming with prissy tat day..saw marcus n his sis..went to take a peek at their new hse..kinda nice..lolz..in condo ma...hmmm...i nv go to school today...i hope dey haven give our results...i'm so scared.!!! Exam...arghhh...well....everyone take care k!!! Thks 4 readin ma blog...MuAcKZzZ**

2004-04-28T23:01:00.000+08:00

OK...ARGGHHHH...miss e computer..anyway..i nv go to school again...went to get mc since mdm wee talk to me abt not coming to school..lolx..aiyoh...why can't fab stop askin me to be his GAL FREN!! fab!?!!!!! arghhh...anyway..i cried in school dat day..NO one cares..only shamala did know i was crying..i'm kinda sad cuz i get b frens like how i i,kim.angel,shuehi n kwee cheng were..why!! why!! Arghhh...i hate maself!! LIFE SUX!!! SCHOOL SUX!! EVERYTHING ARD ME SUXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! someone just kill me !!!!

2004-04-20T19:17:00.000+08:00

ok...i didn't go to school today..haiz...wake up late la !! As usual...haha..anyway...i gotta use e com todae...haha...so happy cuz i managed to come online!!YEAH!! haha...lame rite..happy cuz can come online...aiyoh..anyway..wrote some testimonials for denise,jolene...and dunno who...haha..ok la...i dunno wat to say to mdm wee leh...no mc or letter..die la....die..!! Anyway...me watching chinese show now..and chatting..aiyoh..damn boring leh..i tink i wanna go swimming..!!! Hmmm...i tink i'll ask prissy to call me..we go to jazzuzi and maybe gym...well...for now..tata !!

2004-04-18T19:41:00.000+08:00

haiz...i us hate ma life...i dunno wat to say now...life jus sux..argghhh..guess i irriatated alene...dunno wats up wif me..maybe i'm jus not a big part of her life...maybe she really hates me...i just duno...ARGGGHHH !! LIFE SUX !!!

2004-04-15T14:35:00.000+08:00

Haiz..cut ma finger in class jus now...bleed...haiz..anyway...sorry for not updating....ma stupid com ..can't use le..miss going online..i now using schol com...going for choir later..start at 2.30pm till 5..haiz...anywies...i'm like on fire with DEON !! Everyone keep asking me why..i've been thinking..and i can't figure wats exactly wrong...argghhh...stupid me!! I just guess its her attitude prob !! Arghhh...haiz...went out with lene diann and weiting.lene's fren.went to cwp..shop shop awhile..lene bought some stuff frm body shop..keep askin us to smell stuff..aiyoh..lolx..tat gerl ah...realy makes ma day.....well...i dunno wat to say...maybe i'll come bak tomroz...haiz...oh ya ...i tomroz got sports day..haiz...so boring...and yea..last time..I love you alot joel..i still wan u back...haiz...!!! Sobz...Take care ma love....ByeZ ..mUAcKZz ~~**

2004-04-05T22:23:00.000+08:00

**~~A MiLLi0n WoRDs Would Not Bring You Back, I Kn0w, BecauseI've Tried. Neither Would A Million TeaRs. I Know, BeCause I've Cried~~**

If Life is jus unfair...dun expect love to be..haiz...i wish i could have him back...sob.

2004-04-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

Haiz..Fought wif ma parents yesterday..cut maself..haiz..aniwae.i have a new kor.Fab's fren.He's realli nice.talked to him frm 10+ till 1.15am on satuday.Lolx..Aniwae.sch still sux.I've got lotsa stuff tis week.tomroz got outin to e new water.Haiz...wif ma class 3/3.I dunno y i feel tis way.i dunno.but i hate mdm wee.Haiz ..jus can't understand maself.i have so many probs.FEEL like STABBING maself.ARGHH !! jus fought wif ma parents.cried lots.haiz.why must life be so unfair ? I hate maself for treating ma sis + parents tis way.i blame maself for evreything.haiz..no one loves me.ever since i broke up wif joel..sobz..i nv felt loved.not frm alene.stephy.parents.diann.siblings.friends.NO one !! And yet.I love you all lots.Sobz...all i can do is cry.cry.cry.I gotta pray more.more.more.but no one understands the hurt i feel in me.no one understands why.sobz...will someone pls help...anyone ??I can't say no more.I feel hurt.When is ma time to go...i reali hope its soon....haiz...bYE...

2004-04-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

OK..mom let me use e com gain.haiz...tomroz got to go for some check-up .i told joel i going for operation and he nearly FLIPPED.haiz.. realli miss those days wif him..Aniwae..ma parents supposed to send me to aunt's hse NOW cuz she bring me to check up tomroz..!! but..they lazy..so later..haiz...i'm listening to e chinese song "Xiaowei".I love tat song..so nice..i kept singin in class..."yo yi ge mei li de xiao nuei hai...ta de ming zi xiao wei...blah blah blah.." ma hanyupinyin FAIL !! Aiyoh..aniwae..de song is nice..i like..angeline keep askin me to keep quiet when i sing in chi clazz..but she in e end will sing along one la ...lolx..poor ange..some things jus nv change.!! Like..i alwaes WIN !!! (",) Haha...aniwae..i'm gonna do some testimonials for salleh n otha friends lor..Lolx...i'm damn bored...haiz..lene n diann.. thanks for being there for me k sistas!! MuaCkzZz~~** Love ya lots too !! Well...i wanna go write e testimonials now..later salleh surely gramble when i get back to sch on mon if i dun do it..Lolx..Ok lor....Tag ma board ppl..and jude n rajesh..thks for tagging ma board. ~~ Byez..MuaCkzZ~~**

2004-04-02T13:58:00.000+08:00

Okie peeps...I'm back..have been rather lazy lor..tats why nv update...jus went to lene's web..n hmmm..she nv update since 15th march..too..well...wat i got to say ?? Well...been pissed off these days..i jus hate ma fucking parents..esp ma dad..always beat me when i nv do anything wrong..cuz of ma sis n bro fault..!! DAmn..i dun even feel like callin them ma SIBLINGS !!Haiz..now i'm in school..tats why i get to use e com..haiz..my hands are freezing now...haiz..steph is like as usual..like dun like me dat kind of attitude..fucks me up !! Arghh !! Just fought wif steph mike few days ago..still not talking ..but i dun care !!Her mom actually knows abt me callin her a bitch..and she's ma cathechism teacher..how am i going to face her ??!! Really feel like cutting ma wrists again....dun feel like writing le..haiz.. Byez

2004-03-15T16:43:00.000+08:00

RIVERSIDE!!!!!!!! Yippeee......Yesterday was e fiesta!! It was so cool...jeremy,joel,peter,zach n biswas came too..but last min kind of thingy..It was tiring..but i enjoyed ma self...haha...went to e horror hse with deon alene n diann...deon hold ma hand so tight..screaming al e way ...Lolz..It was fun man...the sec 4s went for confirmation 3 days ago...they came back todae...n i also went wit e servers to buy stuff for potter's clay bbq tomroz....haiz...now talkin to steph,jude n ah yuen..haiz...damn tired...i took a pic and got a autograph by JEAN DANKER..haha...she's really pretty..i took it with alene n diann too..her voice is really sweet...Hmm...should have asked for her hp no...Lolz...well..i'm tired le..Tata !!mUaCkzZ~~**

2004-03-11T20:58:00.000+08:00

wat a fucking day man.stay back till 5+.went home wif alene+diann.buut saw jinyong n sat wif him in e bus lor.Got irriatated alot todae !hmm.by raidah,sheeraz,JINYONG!! I can't believe u raidah.damn u.talk behind ma back.fuck u man.sorry but i'm fed up.i'm not showin off.i have nth to show off lor.I was in a bad mood cuz she was late n i dun have all day to wait 4 her.arghh! tat jinyong keep takin ma ez-link card.showin off to everyone in the 962 BUS!n pritz keep pullin ma hair till i gave up n let it down.went 4 mass wif steph ma dear dear .lolz.thn came home.haiz.ate dinner le.damn tired now...haiz.jude wrote a nice testi for me.Lolz.changed ma song.I love tis song!!kies.i'm lazy le..MuAcKzZ!!

2004-03-10T14:34:00.000+08:00

Oh ma gosh!!I woke up late 2dae...Arghh !! Nv go to sch...hmmm...sch's havin tis fiests funfsir stuff n i forgot whr i put ma tickets..man !!! N i've benn lking 4 it whole of last night !!!Aniwae...i guess i gotts jus keep lkinh..i hope e servers wld be able to make it for ma funfair...wel..i gotta go..will be back latr kies..ByEZ !! mUaCkzZ ~~**

2004-03-07T19:51:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...sorry i nv edit ma blog le...ma dad FORBID us to use e com...he doesn't noe i'm using...Haha..well...I n steph r ok le...I'm so happi !! Well...i gtg la..haiz...Miss lala !! Wel...Tata !! MuAcKzZ ~~~*

2004-02-26T20:36:00.000+08:00

Okey dokey !!! I'm back !!!!!!!! Haha !! My com crashed n couldn't work for days !! Miss hangin out on e com...LOLZ..Well...got a fight with steph...haiz...I hate gettin into fights...Haiz...well...lots been happen...now lets talk abt sch....wa lao...been reali tired these days...tired of life...tired of everyone !!! Arghhh...haiz...after each test...surely sleep one..dunno if i gonna fail not... if i pass...can get a new hp..Nokia 7250 !But i tink i no hope le...haiz! Took bus home with diann(mei) & alene(jie) tat day..so cool !! Lolz...well..i got no mood to type le..maybe tomroz..!!BYez !! MuAcKZkzZ ~~**

2004-02-15T20:00:00.000+08:00

Ok ppl..haha...i'm back to update..my blog nice not ?? Lolz....Hehe..i put some pictures...nice tell me kiex ?? Lolz...Went for mass at 9.15am todae..with mum + dad...then to causeway Jacks place to have lunch...Cuz my sis's b'dae tomroz ma...hmmm..then went for healing mass...it was nice..i was really touched...tears were welling up in my eyes...yeah...i miss pilar...will u call me deary ?? Haiz.. pls do ok !! Love ya lots..i dunno where are you now..ur dad's worried too...haiz...!! Pls call me ok !! I'll be waiting 4 u !! MuaCkZz ~~**

2004-02-13T17:21:00.000+08:00

Ok...hmm....no one tag huh ?? Wa lao..!! Tag leh...Lolz...ok...todae...was total defence day...hmm...ok lor..they cut the electricity !! No fan & lights... so hot sial...Hmmm...now i appreciate fans !! Hmm....ok...so..i dunno wat to say today...just came back frm church...i love my new blog skin!! I love the song too !! ~~** Ok...Tata !! MuaCkXz ~~***

2004-02-11T20:18:00.000+08:00

Nice not ?? My new skin..haha !! Tag my board ppl !! Sorry 4 not updating a long timez...BYez !! Muackzzz ~~~

2004-02-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...i dunno wat to say..hope steph gives me the servers pic soon..haha..wats stopping her man !!?? Yeah....todae..couldn't get up for sch..was so tired...hmmm...damn it...my com damn lagg !! Keep hanging !! Fuck man !! I now damn boring..online..but only toking to stefan only..hmmm... He's so sweet& cute..haha .. Well...so sad rite..i gtg now..i damn tired ..still must hang up clothes..iron uniform...wait 4 my baby's call...and yeah.. Pack bag !! I haven do maths homeowrk..aiyoh !! Dun care la...haiz...i dun wanna go sch tomroz...tired !! Haiz...gtg le !! Byez !! MuAcKzzZZ !!

2004-02-01T15:40:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm....Today's sunday....Church !! Went for 11am mass...27 servers..Haha..Was damn crowded todae..cuz got some things on...dun wanna expain...Too lazy !! Yeah...After mass...went to eat lunch..with steph + avlyn(stupid sista) ...saw the servers there...hmmm...or ya...then i saw kwee cheng..look so prettie...she let her hair down ma...so long & straight !! Duh !! She rebond her hair...Lolz...yeah...so after lunch...as usual..have nth to do...went to sit down near church..and watch the servers play soccer...haiz...was so boring..then jude went to burst the soccer ball...dunno how he burst..Lolz..laugh like hell sia...l i and steph..so poor thing la that jude..he had to go home to get another ball..Lolz...then..nth to do again...so came home lor...use the computer...damn boring...i hope lala comes online soon...Can talk to her...yeah...so...Thats all lor..Nth else to say...need to clean up the hse now..damn it !! Kies...See ya !! Byez !! MuAcKzZ!!

2004-01-27T21:47:00.000+08:00

Ok...i'm here gain..to update my bloggy !!Lets see..wat to say now ??!! I'M SICK !! I havin flu + fever...n..todae..as usual ...School !! First two periods was English - Mrs Selvan !! The stupid Golden Monkey !! I call her that cuz her hair's just too gold for her..Yeah...she teach damn boring seh..!! But...wat to do...we just had to sit down and LISTEN !!! Hmmm...after that was physics..sian also...then was art..it was ok lor...Then..my favourite subject...EVERYDAY have one...R.E.C.E.S.S !! Yeah...got to enjoy my food longer cuz i cut queue...Lolz....then after that ..blah blah blah...After shc..i got to see my darling.!!! I am so happy !! Hmmm.....i gtg now lor..my sis wanna use e com...motha fucker la she...!! Well..Tata!! MuaCkZzZ !!

2004-01-26T17:46:00.000+08:00

I'm like..SO back !!Yeah...back to SO update my blog...Hmm...Lets see...whr shall we start...Today in sch..it was great man !! Mdm Wee(our form teach) ...did not come..Yeah !!....Freedom !! for 3 periods...Atleast...kwee cheng & angeline were friendlier with me todae...lots of laughter today...yeah...After recess ..it was art (4 periods) ..damn..the whole room stink of rotting CRABS ....we had to observe & draw them mah !! Yucks..well...wat to do !! The stupid MR JOB la..then after tat..it was back to study area cuz of Mdm wee..Yeah...i zhongling & salleh folded hearts ...hmmm...but after tat..it was sucky..Stupid Maths teacher made us stay back to do corrections...till 2 plus..i was supposed to meet my baby boy at 3 ..damn...i was late.!! But...nvm...spent the day with him..i am so happy...!! Hmmm...now i gotta do my work...Yeah...ok...Byez...hope i can go online..to talk to you guys later ok??!! MuAcKzZ...Byez !!

2004-01-19T20:08:00.000+08:00

Hellloooooo ppl..........Oh my..i can't believe i nv update for so long le...Oh my gosh !!! Lolz..Hmmmm...guess i was too lazy...i betta get used to updating more ofen..I can't stay on the com for long le...!! My parents lor...Oh my gosh !! And I need to do ART !!! Die la...How to finish like that...opps...i betta go now...Well..I'll be back tomroz...Hmmm...that reminds me..I betta get joel to update his too !!!!!!!!! Byez...Love Ya ppl !!!And alene !! Where's my letter !!!!!!!!!! Kies.. tata~~

2004-01-04T20:33:00.000+08:00

Ok ppl...I'm back again to update...Haha...Today went for mass at 9.15am with stephy...haiz...Saw peter fab zach they all serving mass...Haha...seeing the look on zach's face when he serve mass..damn funny...Coudn't help but keep laughing at him...Well...after mass...hang out in church for awhile..with fab.steph.peter.zach.joel.marcus.and some others...Went for a drink at al ah meen(dunno how to spell)...Yeah...then went causeway point...Was with joel...so happy !! Lolz...Tomroz school...Gotta get my books !! Hmmm....Now talking to joel on the phone...and chattin with stefan online...

2004-01-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

School's started....Holidays ended....Argghhhh...Yesterday was the first day of school..It was cool...then supposed to meet joel...But..haiz..he didn't turn up...cuz of some stupid reasons...Haiz...Was so looking forward to seeing him...Cuz...haha...i wanna see how he looked like...wearing long pants for school..Haiz...but nv la...Nvm...Anyway...My dad says no TV at all on weekdays...and no computer...He said only can check e-mails....Oh man...Now he let me use cuz..i say i checkin mail..Haha...well....Looks like i gotta go le....Ok then..see ya !! Byez....**MuAcKzZ**

2003-12-23T18:52:00.000+08:00

ok..I'm back to update this thingy...Wat a boring day...two whole days i've been stuck at home !! But aleast i got to see my baby boy joel...Lolz..tats makes me very happy !! Hmmm...dunno wat to type lor..but..tomroz..its Christmas Eve le...gotta go for 12am mass....and i still dunno wat to wear....I'm dead meat...!!! Haiz...still need to do my hair tomroz...dunno who gonna follow me..or else i must go alone...!!!!!!Damn...Haiz...i haven got any prezzies for anyone....fuck man..!!! Tat joel went to get me smt..haiz...wish he hadn't !!!!!!! Nvm la... i will go and buy when i have the time & money !! Lolz..Well..now..i'm like helping my dad do some things on the com & talkin to my darling... I love him so much !! yeah...so ..no one can take him away ok !!! Well...gotta continue with my dad's stuff & my darling !! byez..!!

2003-12-20T19:08:00.000+08:00

Alene wrote this in her blog :
(Its abt a gerl)
"She slashed her wrist n died
finali set free from all e heart wrenchin pain she had felt all dese while
no longer tortured mentally
no longer crying emotionally
she was finali set free...
and 4 a long time,shes finali smiling..."
(I think she's right........And i .....I just love it !! )

2003-12-20T18:45:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl...i'm back frm the youth camp...haiz...it was terrible...ya know..sherry..she went too...hmmm..actually..she very nice gerl la....and very pretty !! And...i saw JOEL...keep looking at her...and duh...i got jealous la...as u ppl know me...very petty !! Well..wat to do..she very pretty....mi very scared joel won't like me anymore...how ?? I'll die...And...then..got some problems at camp...with ..desmond ...junior ...steph... Wa lao...I very tired ...just yesterday... i spent hours talking to them ... I nv shout at them b4 like how i did yesterday....I dun wan us to drift away cuz of one stupid gerl !!!!! I wun let tat happen...I swear i'll beat tat gerl up..!! Then...joel got kinda angry with me cuz i was busy helping steph ...desmond...junior with their problems...and did not even call him...He was so angry he even slammed the phone down on me lor..he nv did tat to me b4 !!! I was so sad...kept thinking of him lor...its like as though he was losing feelings for me !!!!! Tats my biggest fear...i hope it'll nv come true !! I dunno if this year's christmas will be good..i think i'm gonna hate it....I really think so...How...Oh..all i wan for christmas is...Joel...!!!!!!!!! I hope...i will be able too....and somemore..joel's birthday coming !!! Shit..dunno wat to get for him....and i dunno wat he wants !!!!!!! Need some help here....Boys ??

2003-12-13T17:22:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm....I'm back..to update this thingy...Haiz...Very sian...Tuesday(16/12/2003) -Thursday(18/12/2003) got youth camp...hope it'll be fun..with stefie and audrey..and that sherrie going!! Actually..dunno her lor..but..find her veri bitchy...Opps...i'm being so mean..haiz...wat to do ?? Thats me...anyway...i've been on the com..for like hours...and still damn boring !! The servers went for stupid soccer match ...I could have gone...but...dun wan lor..would be alone...haiz...very sian..Well...gtg now...My life is boring...Byez...Miss joel & you all !!!!!!!

2003-12-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

Haiz....found out abt the chalet..why nv tell me ?? We were planning it together....haiz...can't believe you ...realli can't...Life sux...lost joel even...haiz....anyway...cleaned up my drawers and stuff all...found our class pictures...Haiz....so sad....every min that i spent with you...deep down i knew i had nothing to lose....but i lost ....Our friendship will nv end....as long as time keeps on passing by......Angeline...

2003-12-04T18:24:00.000+08:00

Hi...Todae was so fun..much things to say...Lolz....ok...supposed to wake up at 7.00am but haha...45 min late ...steph kept calling me...to wake me up...cuz we were gonna bring the kids frm the camp to East coast park...well...went down at 8.15am...most of the kids were there le...well....took the bus and the kids started singing songs..oh man...zachy couldn't on his techno songs..they were singing LOUDER !!! Lolz...when we reached there...ok lor...its like..shermann,zachary,eugene,cutiepie,jeremy,gerald,audrey(bernard's sis),amanda(bernard's cousin),junior,stephy and me...went to macdonalds...we were supposed to help out..but...was hungry...Lolz..well..the east coast macdonalds nice sial...got the skate-thru..we ordered with our BIKES...yeah..after that..we went for rides...was nice ...very fun....haha...wanna go again man...who planning...?? Dun forget me ah !! Yeah..wished joel was there....then played with the sand all..like small kid....Lolz...but very relaxing....yea...well...joel came back frmthe camp todae..so happy..and yeah..they brought home a cute little puppy...so cute..well...i'm tired man..so..come back later...Muacckkss !!~~

2003-12-02T13:42:00.000+08:00

HELLO !! I'm back atlast...to update this thingy !! Lolz....Yeah...aniwaes..this whole week i'm like not free...First ..frm monday to friday...i'm helpin out a children's camp in church..frm 8.30am to 12pm....and....Guess wat..I'm in charge of group PINK !! Haha..i love that colour...yeah...haha....then...todae...joel going for this vocation camp...i found out that stefan was going to that same camp too...Lolz...cool...then..when they left todae..gotta see him joel !! So happy...couldn't stop smiling at him...hehe...yeah...junior was the one who asked me to help out...the children soo cute..but kinda tiring...then after friday morning...we have LISS...at 7.45pm -9.30pm..next day+sunday...got LISS again!! From 2 pm- 9.45PM !!! Oh man !! Well....blame myself only...too helpful ..Lolz...dun puke k .!! Well...i NOW...going out with steph and stitch..to causeway point....haiz....come back later or tomroz...Lolz....See ya !! MuAccKs...~~~~

2003-11-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

Haiz...i'm back...I cannot stop cutting myself....i dunno ....i just cannot....i cry every night....thinking of him....This pain is just too real..there's just too much that time cannot erase.........I need him....My heart is broken ...wat am i gonna do..i fear....i may do things stupid....Haiz....i love him...alot alot....During LISS....keep looking at him....i feel like bursting in to tears...give him hugs...but....can someone just kill me !!! Sob !!! Joel....come back soon..i'm waiting....

2003-11-30T13:22:00.000+08:00

I duno wat to say now..just typed a letter to joel...I need him back...how ?? I hate myself....feel like jumping down ....haiz...i think..later i'll come back to update..Sob....Miss him....gtg for LISS....need to talk to someone.....

2003-11-27T13:58:00.000+08:00

haiz....i really have no more mood to do anything...juz broke up with joel....sobz....it was jus yesterday tt we were still together..now..he's no more mine...maybe he'll forget me...but i can never do that ..never....I'm trying to forget that i'm addicted to him..haiz...jus started cutting myself again...i just feel the pain coming out with my blood when i do so..joel said he doesn't wan me to do it..but...haiz...cannot...i feel so heartbroken...i noe he still loves me...wats the use...when we can't be together !!...Someone help me !!! Sob...i dun wanna just sit and cry ...i wanna be there for him...Sob...i need him....now its over....Sobs....I need a hug...prissy...we need to talk...meet ya soon....haiz...Aniwaes....take care yeah everyone....jus wanna say..i still love him....See ya guys soon....if possible....Sobz.....

2003-11-26T00:43:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl !! Wats up !!!!!! ok...yesterday (Tuesday) went to visit some malay relatives and yeah...To all my MUSLIM friends...SELAMAT HARI RAYA !!!....Lolz....then went to see my grandpa at his workplace...yup...then...todae..mi going to ESCAPE THEME Park..!! With my darling !!!!!!! And..its our 1st anniversary together le !! ONE year !!!!!!!!!! Yippee !!!!!! Haha.....yeha..now chattin with my dear and junior....yeah...doing some stuff for them !!! So.....I will come back ..later in the afternoon to tell ya abt todae wih joel ,jude,my cutiepie and eugene !!!!!!!! Yeah ?? Okey...Byez !!!

2003-11-22T21:37:00.000+08:00

Got up todae early in e mornin by my dad !! took a nice cool bath for nearly 15min !! Mum was already screaming her head off....i could have taken a longer bath... !! Aniwaes...mi grandma who stays at mi hse for the last few weeks was going back tis evening to malaysia...so mum wanted us to spend time wit her b4 she went back...yeah...then stephy micheal came over mi hse...we took some pictures ...and she went to church at 3...i went to choose mi clothes for my cathechism class....yeah...it normally took mi 1/2 hr to do so...n was usually late cuz of tt !! Well....vanessa and steph mike came to mi hse downstairs to walk mi to church...haha....even though its sooo near...Lolz...then tt zachary made us buy a drink for him b4 we went to church !! stupid man.... well...went for class...saw maria..OH my !!!! Such a sicko nut !!!! **rOlLinG eYes* Well...nick(jude's fren) came to our church todae...haha...he kept smiling...so wierd !! And...most important of all !! I got to see my joel !! Lolz...so cute !!! *grins*Well....went for dinner with junior steph &jasy !! Then came home lor...now i'm on the com atlast aft a long tiring day !!.... And mi parents not in !! Haha..and tt annoying little sister of mine is like not in too !!!So Happi !!! Lolz...kies....gotta go now !! love ya !!! Muackzzz !!!!!!!!!!!!!

2003-11-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

Hi Ppl....Last nite mi parents were like home the whole day so like....couldn't get to use the com...aniwaes...yesterday..i and steph went swimming again !! Yeah....then she came over mi hse...my mum had made some tea and bought cakes to eat...so..we ate lor...yea..she kinda FORCED us too...since i so skinny !! Then...we took some pictures..frm mi dad's camera ..then went for mass...jasy went to steph's hse..to dye her hair...Lolz...Yeah....well...abt today ...sian la...went swimming again !! Haha !! ya...u ppl must be thinking....i am darker now...dunno joel still wan me not..!! Lolz...kies....i'm soooo happi todae lor....got to see my darling kies !! Came back frm the camp....FINALLY !!!!! Yeah...saw my cutiepie....junior...zachy and mi bro !!Then..aft that...i went to causeway point...jasy wanted to buy new shoes since she starting work tomorz....working as a ...erm..dunno wat la !! Lolz...at the airport !! Yeah...pris going to malaysia tomorz...so sad...gonna miss her !! haiz...eugene here..damn irriatating..!! ARGGHH !! Kies ...i gtg now....Bye !! Love...Lexine !!! Muackzzz!!!

2003-11-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

Well....last nite...tt Joel nv call me...*SoBZ*!! Well....dun blame him..there like no phone lor...but was extremly happy when he did call me in the morning... so sweet !! Thanks Baby !! Anyway..gettin back to ME ...i went swimming todae with stephy again !! Taught her how to swim some styles...even though she still can't get them rite !! HAhA !! (sORrY StePH) Well...AnGeL called mi today ...asked if wanna go watch a movie " Wishin Stairs" ...but...so sad lor...mi mummy dun let...but surprisingly...she let me go swimming even in the rain !! Haiz....i miss the servers lotsa !! All of them !!*SiGhs* heard frm that eugene yeo tt they suffering....hope he's wrong !! Well....atfer swimming..steph came over mi hse..i kinda helped her to do a blogspot site..for her la... but..i dunno how...lolz...so asked alene to help me to help her... Lolz..cuz she too helped me with this site of mine...so sweet of her !! Thanks jie jie !! HeHe...sian...stefan like nv call me le these days...STEFAN !!well...i gotta go ...wanna watch charm soon....Lolz....see ya !! Come back for more updates !! ~~~MuAcKzZ **
LoVe FrM lExInE !!

2003-11-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

Oh man...just got a call from stephy..we both waitin for their calls.....i'm waiting for joel's call...i noe he will call me....haiz..no news frm them still..hope they are fine..esp my baby boy and cutiepie...!!!!!!! Miss them lots !!!!!! Well...hope they are fine!!If they can hear me..i wanna say " I miss ya guys !! "

2003-11-18T21:15:00.000+08:00

Woke up in the morning at 6am....attend mass at 6.30am...haiz..then...ard 8...i sent the servers off with steph saying bye for their camp...SO SAD !!I miss joel sooo much..*sighs*After that...went swimming till 12 smt with steph jie ...went for lunch..then she came mi hse cuz we were veri tired...so..sleep lor...we talked abt the servers...we both miss them !! Can't wait to see them again on friday...haiz....talkin to pilar and anita now...kies..i'll be back latr ~~ Hehe...Byez....

2003-11-17T16:25:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!! Wao...I'm sooo happy to get my internet back.... damn...can't believe it was cut for quite some time....couldn't go online and couldn't get to update this thingy man...*sighs*.....I'm so sad !!...tomroz....The servers got camp...till the 21st(friday)...will miss them lots !!Esp JOEL....junior...zachy...my cutiepie 1 and mi bro !! Damn !!Well.....nth i can do....haiz...wel...atleast have stephy jie and jasy ....Lolz...We'll have a great time....i'm sure of that !!

2003-10-20T21:47:00.000+08:00

I realli love him....Joel...i love you forever i will !! NO ONE can take ya away !! ok ???

2003-10-20T18:46:00.000+08:00

I love this song !!!
Evanesance (Going Under )

Now I will tell you what I've done for you-
Fifty-thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me (going under)
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily, defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again !

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not [overlapping]
Always confusing the thoughts in my head (ooh-aah)
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm...

So go on and scream
Scream at me, I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe, I can't keep going under

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under (going under)
Going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under.........................................

2003-10-20T15:56:00.000+08:00

Aww....I finally did it man....Lolz...

2003-10-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

Awww..........i wanna do a damn tag-board..i just duno how..!!!!!Help !!Alene !!

2003-10-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

Yoz !! Well....this is the first time ..doing smt like this...Lolz...yeah...alene (jie) helped me...Hehe...erm...gotta go..bye

**LexInE lOVeS JoEl**

LexInE lOVeS JoEl